Everyone gone f camp. Juz when i finally decided my fate ytd on my bed. Since i got no one t talk t, I ll write here! How lucky r u folks!

So i decided tat im GOIN t b an accountant. Yes. Im goin poly taking an accountant degree. Den go University taking Business. I did alot of thinking n it seem this S t fastest way t get RICH.

Unless if i score like 10 pts f Os . If i SCORE 10 pts, i ll go JC. Take up this radio thingy. Basically looking through X rays n stuffs. Then ill b a radiothingy! Ahh. Its so nice t finallly knoe what t b. N I tot of al this within 5 Minutes before i go t bed.

Before deciding my future, i was heartbroken actually. My boy BEST fren has a gf. My heart ache t think everyone has grow up having a GIRL. Then i began t think. For al this yrs, HE s the one who accompanied me everywhere. And he was there t listen t me eventhough he's bad at comforting. He's there wen im in trouble n we went thru ALOT tgether.When everyone let me down, He's always there. N now he's wif sum bitch. Really i hav no right calling her a bitch but i hated her since i first saw her. Now he s not there anymore. Always wif his GIRL. God . Wat t hell happen t the phrase Frenz Come First. N he was t first guy who brought me home. So sweet. Maybe i took him f granted n this s my punishmt. Wish everything was like last time. No string attached. Juz couple of kids hanging out tgether. T turn back clock s wat i guess EVERYONE want.

My old buddy gave me this no of my another fren. We went a long way n left school wif unfinished business. I duno if i want t message. If i message wat wld i say! Will he even talk t me when he knoes it's me? Wat if im rejected again by t same person. God i will nv live life again if tat happen. Mayb part of t reasons im rejecting guys is probably him. He left this hugh impact on my life then juz walk away. Tat's y i hate it when ppl juz walk away from me. I tot 4 yrs was enough t like forget him. I guess i mistook myself AGAIN. Not surprise there. I really shld d sumthing t connect me n my brain.

I cant believe i been thinking alot bcos of sum fucking guy but they say he's gd-lookin. Im really clueless f t first time in yrs.

I wont really bother if i write abt this two guys in my social link wif the world wide world. Not like they even use the net.

I decided tat the nxt person who ask me out or sumthing , Ill will accept. I want t c wat's so big abt t whole stead thing. Anyway its my last yr. Anything goes wrong, I wont b seeing them anyway in abt 6 mths time.

I guess everyone s t same. They r not happy or satisfied or thankful or grateful wif wat they have, constantly asking for more until it goes away. Some ppl make small things complicated.

Some juz are afraid t make a mistake or rejectted or left alone so they dun move up n remain in the safe zone. They live in constant fear n they repeat their daily jobs everyday which eventually become a routine . Life juz become meaningless . Empty juz like the black nite sky they stare alone evry nite in their bedroom.

Some r juz too arrogent, thinking the world is theirs to keep. Goin ard killing anyone they one. Or for the teens nowadays they usse t word ' hung '. Ya. Whatever.

N love. A complicated subject. Gender. Boys complainin tat they dun understd girls. N girls vice versa. Its all the same problem. But delicated situation. Wat i learn in my 15 yrs of living s truthful t yourself n others is the only policy.

Friends. Evryone nids them. No matter how powerful u r in terms of ur position. Boys/girls come n go. Fren will remain. Even those wif gf/ bf, They wont b able t hang ard wif them 2 4/7. Eventually they will get irritated which leads t complicate breakups.

Family. The most impt of al. Leave them n you ll b al alone in this ugly world.