Gawd all this teachers telling us abt Os like we dun knoe how impt it is .--" Aniway. I had been studying. For the couples of days on the first week of january. But after tat i was too lazy to bother .Maybe next week, i'll start fresh by doing my hw here at home instead of at sch. Eh nxt week is last week of january. Tat was fast. yeassh. So anyway. Im cured. i think. i dunno. maybe. I haven been out since 1 jan. So sunday's trip will be my second outing for this year. ...........................................................................................................................................................Hah my life is a mess. i did absolute nothing educational or social for the pass 3 weeks. WHo am i to kid. im NOT cure. All i do is go home.On my radio or cds.Listen to it for hours. And sleep. Im definately not cured.

Im crushed. For now. Rejected someone i liked . Dun ask me why.i got no answer to tat question. After living for 15 yrs, i still dunno who i m. Wat i want wat i need and wat i desire. I still dun knoe wat is right to do or wat is not. i dunno where to go to or what im goin to become. i dunno who i liked and who i love. Wat i feel n wat's my mood. Wat's iimpt or was will nv be impt. To go left or to go right. I dun even trust myself to begin with. Set couple of rules for myself yesterday. Never expect and there wont be dissapointment and dun assume anything or anyone. Talked to mr lim yesterday.Discuss with him the possibility of me dropping some subjects. Maybe i will.Not that i can handle the subjects anyway. S aw Cruel Intentions on starmovie. Fucking great movie but didnt managed to watch the ending. Anyone who watched it, please tell me wat happened in the end. How was school? Hmm.. horrible. Had to do another freaking projects wif the same people who i simply hate. They never do anything to me. It's juz the face. Call me shallow.

New yr todae.Haha i dun feel any different.wAT's the big deal anyway!? So anyway i would like to do a thankful list for stuffs tat help me go thru this yr

` The maker of nutella.without u i would end up in the mental hospital

`The maker of Want Want. U help me fulfill my desire

` My ex tuiton teacher who changed my life when i was in pri 4. you make me a smarter person.Eventhough i dissapoint by ending up goin to this school, i might end up goin to worst school without ur help.Thanks soo much

` liana and khai for giving me bear2.Without him i might die of boredom

` the inventor of handphone. THanks for making this wonderful device.Eventhough i always arrived meetings late but without my hp i would be even later.And u help me get closer to some guys but sometimes u are a curse but let put tat aside

` My parents..for giving me my radio and other technology to kill my boredom and of coz givin birth to me and taking care of me for 15 yrs

` My computer. most of the time i spent cursing u but i hav to admit u help me get some work loads done and all those music i download and the wonderful ppl i met

` My blankie for keeping me warm when im cold and protecting me from the evil of the world

` fidah and shaf and taqiah . fOr still keeping close even when we are always apart

` My md player. THANKS for helping time pass by when i take any public transport.and blocking my mum's nagging

` My wonderful calender with all those codes.Motivate me to move further.ok tat wasnt true but it sounded good.

` my frenz for making school less sucky

` Fidah again for being there when i need u

` fadhirul and aishah for entertain me on the phone for very long hours

` Chun seng and viknesh and khay mar(sumtimes) for helping me to keep up in class

` Khay mar for making class interesting.Most of the time we ended up by u and the chong argueing abt u talking too much.ya interesting

`khai. For sticking up wif me.ya sumtimes i can be a bitch to hang ard wif so ya THANKS.

` amanda . i dun noe wat to thank for but thanks for being my friend. hope things doesnt change btw us

` shazwan. thanks la. for helping me to invent plans to not go for np and my studys and smsing me stupid stuffs



Ya thank you.. ** (= **

Juz got back from hols it sux.dun want talk abt it.So aniway.,., christmas is over so new yr coming up which means school.wat a drag..(--") AT the end of the yr i LUB to draw up lists n dis yr im doin it here so i will not forget abt it.



Stuffs im goin to do after Olvl.

* laugh at my bro.he haven go thru o level
* dye my roots dark blue
* do sum peircing job.but i wont write on my blog .i dun want my fate to end up like athena
* donate my books. nah..cancel tat tot.,. burn my bks
* destroy ugly gray thingy
* celebrate whole day
* laugh at those younger than me


I will add more as i grow up

In the meantime

* study
* study
* study
* study
* learnt to be considerate to my books / friends / teachers / brothers
* restrain self from throwing books from high level in sch building
* stop getting pissed or pissing (by) mt teacher
* stop copying hw from intellectual ppl
* stop hanging ard wif intellectual ppl juz to get their hw
* stop taking fadhirul / syahid / khai / asrida 's hw during mt
* start liking mt
* sstop staring at guys during lesson
* stop thinking abt him
* sstopp flirting wif unknown victim
* stop staying after sch to look at him
* go home early
* stop stressing self and other ppl ard me abt my weight
* start thnking abt the future
* stop making plans on getting rich by 30
* stop making ideas on opening up own company
8 stop talking on phone wif aishah or fad for long hours


yea tat's abt it.the possibility of me doing all this is ..hmm..let me c.. abt 10%

Bike riding was AWESOME. Went home wif muscle cramps and all but it was worthy.We met at west coast and there were all type of peaps dere. We were grouped and i was all alone in my gp but made sum frenz. Aniway the whole thing started at 12 md exactly.[checked my watch] The first route was kinda slow .Den when we reached the traffic lights, gps were seperated since we had to stop once it turns red. I was separated from my gp . i was last in the line wif dis other girl. WE were so confused since we were leadin the line and our leader was not infront to guide us.But then came dis guy . . and guess wat . . he's not bad looking. not surprised here cause most of the leaders are good looking and like above 20.and the girl infront of me was so very slow and he was riding beside us.i was afraid to move into his lane since he was very close. sO we cycled all the way to labouror park.WE came across another traffic.and the girl infront of me got to cross first b4 it turned red so i was stuck behind so NOW i was leading the line. and we were nearing to the park so he told me tat i was the only one from gp 7 and asked me if i could speed and i was like duh but juz said yea and so there we were speeding up the hill and we left the line.It was really REALLY nice. We challanged who could cycle faster and obviously he won since he got a mountain bike compared to mine( --') so rest at the park and continued to cycle towards kallang. The streets of orchard were unusually empty. Saw a few crazy ppl and polices patrolling wif guns.The not bad looking leader was not wif us but saw him when we left kallang .he was wif his fren and i was like speeding.Ok the rule was nv speed, nv cut the person infront of u and nv do stunts. Den his fren was like "eh dun speed' and i slowed down and they were joking around saying sumthing like giving lecture on speeding to me. SO After kallang we went to east coast. By the time we reached east coast,it was 5.And it started to rain. Got back around 10..FUNFUNFUN tat day was. So on tue i did nothin but rot.On wed wen out wif my mum. ON thur , went to bugis.On fri,went to m'sia. And todae,The usual. my sat routine.watch tv.eat.sleep.computer.But this week is awesome.

I juz written dis whole chunk of paragraph and i want to save and *poof* it's gone.Im so fuck up wif computers.Technology for humans my ass. Im so piss tat i need to sleep.mayb sum day i write abt wat i wrote before dis post./

ok so i cant sleep so might as well i type abt wat i type juz now before it went poof. So 2 DAYS ago, went out wif aishah.it was a fun day. Our mittin point was at school.dun ask me y. i was late.as usual. I would be even later if aishah had not call me up. So went to school 30 minutes later and there they were pple attending their ccas. i got mo idea y the hel;l r they wasting precious hols time goin to cca. Mus be no social life. So aniway. there was a hussle in schoo. Too lazy to type.ask me if u wanna knoe. Finally we got out of sch and we went to the lib.Not much pple there so we went to EC. Saw someone we knoe holdin hands wif someone we dunno. SAt and ate.We later than walk to IMM since aishah had no money to go to jp.WE took a free bus ride to JP.THe last time we went jp was went aishah and hyt was so worked up to c taufiq. Jp is like my key to my closet. Eberything i want is there but they r so x. but the clothes and earrings are so cute and pretty tat i need it. so badly.have to save money again. sO ANyway we went down to HELL. And there he was standing.the guy in my dreams. lol..he was standin wif his dad i tink and he was checkin us out. he was cute and cool and short.but nvm im short so it's not a matter. and aishah had to spoilt it all by draggin me to the passageway to the post office.she didnt c the guy though.She had to pay sum bill. and by the time we got back he's gone.juz like my previous post. suck like hell and it's all aishah's fault. She own me big time. I knoe sum of u ppl who knoe abt my story wif him might been wondering tat i m suppose to b attach to only one guy but god we r not even steady yet. so it's still legal. and by the way he's moving too slow and to update u guys abt us,,we are still on level 3. not doin anything to get to lvl 4. sO YEA yawnyawn.. 2moro which is todae im goin bike riding coast to coast at 12 md. hope it doesnt rain since it's december. cant wait..tata

Wat can i say im HAPPY and im CONFUSED at the same time for some reason. Oo and SAD TOO becos i didnt c my cute no not cute.handsome coz who came here 2dae when i was out sumwhere. BEEn goin out alot lately and im getting sick of it.Yea rite..like tat would ever happen.. (--")..BUT im sick..coughing and all tat. SO aniway it 12 mn.happy b'dae HUYU. im bored and i duno wat to rite.the only reason im updating my blog is bcos km forced me to. Oo i learnt sumthin 2dae.i learnt how to spell km's name.L O L.Been sitting beside u for one semester and i dun even knoe how to spell ur name.Dis is how distracted i am in class.Yes my mum is givin me a lecture abt not wasting my time in front of computer and study for my O at 12 mn. Yes im goin to switch off my computer and sleep so i wont be hearing the rest of the lecture.

For more photos visit khai's bloggy..she had a few up . Fyi it's our jalan raya photo on the first day which was on mon.The second day was on wed and the third is next week but de date not confirm yet. So aniway, WED was specially Fun.Got back around 11.30pm.We started around 1.3o..Actually it was 12.30 but i came late and everyone have to wait for me.Den we went to nas house.den um i dun remember.but i remember the time when me and aishah trapped Adi in the bus to interogate him abt some stuffs.It was funny and i learnt a hugh deal after minutes askin him to speak up. I oso remember goin to aishah's house and saw taufik's autograph. De most interestin house had to be syahid's.His sister put the H in H0T.All of us were wondering how he and she are related.God works in mysterious way i guess.After his house we went downstairs to play bunge api.By tat time it was 9.15.The boys were throwin it in great distances and i was hopin tat nobody called the cops up. And the xcitement ended around 10.15. Fun. On thur, i went to sch for the open house cum buying my bks. I'm not involved in the whole open house thingy.As usual.I was invited to help up for np but nar..i rejected..lol..Anyway i cant go np.I will get killed for dying my hair.So when i took 154.i saw hambali.Gotdown the bus and dere he was.Wait sorry,not suppose to rite abt him.sOMething happened.Den went into school.went to malay dept.saw liana and aishah. sat and chat.Not much pple came.wat can i say.My sch's pathetic.bought my bks and went home wif liana.Den there he was again.Talk abt my highlight.tat's all. Oooooooo my bro's not around.he in m`sia .and im nv been so happy.

hyt.me.liana 

Juz got back from m'sia. Went dere wif only my bro. Boy, de amt of money we spent in one day is like saving for a yr.Bought LOTS of stuffs.Stayed dere only for 3 days.No place is better than home no matter how interesting a place might be.Hari Raya's comin in another 4 days and after tat $$ will be pouring! No, im not 100 percent lookin forward to the money.Only abt 99 percent. Lol.* HR also means gathering.yea.Nothin's more better than lil old gathering wif relatives.But wait a minute..nvm.change of mind to tell u peaps abt my family.Aniway ditch geog lesson today and yesterday.It's a boring subject and i hav no interest in it.. I knoe O's is nxt yr and hav to b mentally prepared blah..blah.. but why study now when dere's always nxt yr. SO soory u guys for not pitchin in de project today but im sooOO tired. But I' ll make up for the other project, k?Wat was it abt aniway? The song 'Over and Over again' rocks..lluv it so much but unfortunately due to my lack of knowledge to change songs in blog,im stuck to dis Hilary duff song.

So how?Lyke my new skin.Its fab.Now butterflies r de in thing for me.And Km.Funny how we usually lyke the same stuffs at the same moment. niway..today and every other days dis week haf to go to school.For extra lessons.U knoe how teachers complaining tat they have not enough tyme to cover all de chapters. Dis is one of their excuse for them to drag us all the way to school to torment us again lyke one whole yr wasnt enough. I find dis excuse kinda sux.Come on.They can xtually cover all the chapters within 10 mths given if only they dun waste tyme lecturing us.Like Choong.But he covered all the chapters so bad example.Ok how abt Lee.He talked too much.And sum teachers keep repeatin themselves OVER and OVER again like we are tat stupid.For example Seeto. cheez.. My hws *surprisesurprise* Im halfway thru. wat can i say holiday at home is BooorINg and goin out..hmm where can i find sumplace xcitin in S'PORE? and i cant shop wif an empty stomach. having camp on dec i tink.guess im not goin.as usual. Ok let me clear dis up once and for all.The whole 'him' thing i wrote in the past is over.Nada.Zero.Nothin.Forget i even write abt him.He's a fuckin slut.So no more stories abt him.

The last 2 weeks i have done it all.i have skipped lesson, skipped school,skipped from hell. school rules sux and so are the ppl who invent it. Nv bring down my thermometer down today.Need to come to school at 8 juz to do the temperature reading for punishment. And its a Saturday.Stoopid Vice principal. We had a great tyme spending our last day in school listening to all the teachers complaining abt our discipline problem.Like Dur..we are kids and kids do wat normal kids do and tat's destroying school property. talking to us over and over again will make matter worst plus its a waste of time... After spending one and a half hours in the 'cooling'hall ,got back to class.We did nothin til 1045.The choong came and he started another lecture with the same concept and tat's how irrespondsible, noisy, inconsiderate..blah..blah..blah we r. Dis has been going on for almost a yr now.Y cant we hav a saint form teacher who dosnt talk much and let us mind our own business? .. Teachers from all over come into our class to give holiday hw.So much for holidays.But i must buck up.My results are like shit. Nxt yr is the '0'... haix..tyme move fast. Another like 15 days i think to hari raya.not lookin forward to celebrating the festival but looking forward to the day tat ends the fasting period.

DIED OF BOREDOM AT 15

Guess wat?! Exams' over.technically another two more days but pretend it is. Aniway the papers were difficult and all of my subjects i learnt it one day b4 the exam..as usual..Potential to get A1..hmm none. Potential to pass..emath, history, ss, geog. Potential to fail ..the rest.Atleast it's better than midyr. Let's hope not 30 again. Got back my mt result.long time ago.pass it tat all im sayin.wats been up..quite alot actually.Got a MD for 2o bucks.second hand of coz but the original price is like 100 times more.Lucky i guess. The next thing's personal. 'll write down it if it's more than a rumour in the future. got bad news. can't burn my books yet.need to use it for next yr.cheez.Maybe my chem and phy if im taking sub sci next yr.Or my amath if i drop it.Still deciding wat to do after paper 2moro.s'pore is such a drag.All there's shoppin malls.theaters.escape park.beaches.snow city.bowling alley.ice skating rink.library.been there.done all.Wish i was young again and i can go for the first time to all this places again.It seem so much interestin back then.

Exams around the corner.How could time move so fast..i still remember my first day this yr.Got my pink card..had to say it was not bad.Having mood swings nowadays.has to be the things i got to go thru everyday. Been failing loads of tests lately. Attempts on my studies r backfiring me.

Had horrible day.First thing first. Amath lesson. Tot it starts at 11. Woke up around 9:30.I was lucky to spare my time reading Km' s sms. She said it starts around 9 and I had a 5 minit bath Fast record so far and as an award I dropped my earring on the floor and haven found it til now. It was ex and I really MEAN ex. URGH…….. Didnt eat breakfast.Bf is like my essential thing to do once got up.without it life will be hell. Aniway back to the story.God was kind enough for 154 to come right on time..and I was lyke late for only 30 minutes..Den zq was sitting at my place and vk took my amath bk which been missing for like one week.He didn’t take it.His fren took it without me knoeing it but it is still his fren so he should be blamed. I spent last Friday searching it around school and there it was wif sum stranger one week later. K..whatever.

Had to go tts again.Finally ended the 6 mths and today got my cert. Mixed up happened while going there . dun wan elaborate further. Had to wait for like one hour for them to call my number and I only spent 5 minutes to get my cert.

Got no idea why today was fuck up horrible.Maybe bcos I tidy up my bed once I woke up.Nv did it before and looked how much different can tidying up a bed do.

The holidays…Ahh finally arrived. I am so happy and not tension. Another 4 weeks Im gonna face my exams. I know nothing and I learnt nothing so I am so relaxed…not. I got 7 days to get 7 subjects with about 40 topic in my goddamn brain.

2day, a Saturday. *Surprise* *Surprise* I went for Np. There’s a reason why I went to day. We were going to the army open house.
Army open house = Men in uniform= cute, macho men.
Yeah and oso there might be a possibility tat I went there bcos HE’s going there.

Came to school quite early,hang around canteen.Waited for like 30 minitues for the rest to come. When they arrived they say we could go into the Np room since we are now nco and all tat.I totally forgot tat I am now an nco..The problem is I got no idea wat the hell I am suppose to be incharge of. But who cares..It’s not lyke I m coming all the time. I am sure my post can’t be sumthing impt..

The army thingy turned out to be a drag. Not to Liana though.Sum hunk asked for her number when she was standing there doing nothing. Lucky her. I didn’t saw or talk to him at all.i think it’s time for me to move on and stop considering him.. It’s taking me a lot of time thinking abt him and wondering if he gona do it or not so im giving up.

So continuing, I went home feeling miserable cause my life was pretty much the same but I figured out I should atleast enjoy so I on the air con and slept. Good way to spent half of the afternoon.Then the rest I spent watching Tv .Sumthing educational. I learnt a lot in tv like the Osbournes always have fuck in every sentence and say luv u to each other..kinda sweet for sumone wif tattoo body so this prove hard core got softness underneath. And I learnt how to kidnapped sumone and captivate them and eventually kill later. So it WAS an interesting day.

Today wasn’t exactly a waste of time..i met my juniors.. boy r they cute

Finally i can post.Hate technology.

My life is ruin.Ok so i always say tat alot but dis is geniune crisis.

All the while i was talking abt him when there's another him who lyke me.Let us name this him:him2 to avoid confusion.

It all started when i went to eat in KFC and there he2 was and started to lyke me.The following nite,he2 got my number and b4 i knew it i was in a crisis.If i was evil enough i had played awhile but i had no time so i told him after 4 days NO. So technically sum1 did it for me but its the same.And now he's all moody and all.AND it's all bcos of ME.Cheez..On top of tat i have an idiot behind me ,who gave him2 my number, to remind me every single day how hard cold i m.But the idiot helped me sort out my life though ,so i KINDA forgive him.Him2 is his fren and fren stick up for each other.Imma so trapped .wat the hell am i suppose to do????wonder if he knoes abt this.. ..i not going to another kfc again.

My result is more depressing.got 8 for amath.A single digit double-looped 8.But if u r in my class getting a 10 is not bad so i guess im almost there.It's out of 25 fyi.

Failed my mt test.dis one is beyond discussable.Nothin could change it.

My CHEM.ugghh..it's depressing beyond depressing.To get out of the retest zone,one's supposed to get 21 and i got 20!!!!!the agony of not getting juz one bloody mark.SO now i have to do it again .twice.Lyke all the rest of my chem tests.Sum thing juz nv change.

Another 2 lessons and im outta bc..can't wait.

damn it . got POP this saturday.i dun wanna go but i am the prize giver so i HAVE to go. .....

Got a pathetic 20 cent from Ngu War for throwing my amath from the second floor.

Km b'day dis saturday and we r having a pool party.Finally sumthing to relax.HAPPI EARLY B'DAY KM!!!and pple out there who knoes her pls buy her presents.And tat km is ur b'day present from me.I helped u to advertise ur b'day on my blog.

Ashlee Simpson is awesome.Cooler than her sis.Must get album.

I am 15 now..tat's like so old.a teen not a tween animore. I ain't wanna grow up so fast but i like all presents though.lolx..and i can do my IC.Finally my misery from shafiq's joke is over.

Guess wat's his joke..he was like going to our table after school on july i tink and he juz got his ic from general office..And he was like "check PINK card.check PINK card"checking everyone's and every1 on the table had one except me.Then he said to me "Oo ya u no Ic"..EEee..Tat guy..i will get him sumday and prove who is the leader of MOM.(MINISTRY OF MISCHIEF)

So wat did i get..Umm..lets juz say alot of cute teddys.but nothin could beat HIS.

Had geo test today.god damn difficult.i studied the whole nite on flooding.then the test is not tested on anything abt flooding.Haix..waste of time. i'm better off without studying.I was sitting there and looking left and rite.every1 was writing and i feel so empty wif no idea wat to write.i hate seeto.I hate sch for forcing me to take pure geog.

Mt was horrible too.I had a veri fustering day.My chem hw not done.My geo hw not done.My test not yet memorise.And i had to do it within 6 hrs.

So Mt, i was juz abt to relax myself by taking a look at my COUPON given by chen yan.Then she was like "do u want me to conviscate tat?"..then i was organising my mix-up papers in my bag while she was talking crap abt this dictionary. And she ask me to put my paper away.COME ON.this is wat u call time management.Instead of listening abt a book, i use up my valueable time by clearing my bags.

Cheez..All mt teachers r the same.Always picking on me.

AND before MT was PE.and i wore um 'different' and we were made to line up before coming to class.ya..wat small kids.shows how old fashion my teacher is.Then they were like 'Since when u wear like tat' and started irritate me by pulling it.slap hard on one of them and they got quiet.Like i say i was fusterated and the most impt thing to do if u want me to b happy is never irritate me when im fusterated.

Aniway who ask them for opinion.I am wat i want to be.

Atleast Geog remedial was cancelled due to shifing of stuffs in new building.Ya after one week of further delay in the stuffy old temp block,we finally going to the new one.Juz hope they didn't delay it again.

after school, my small 'mean girl' gang(mg) decided to go WM.On the way out,got this bus FULL of rugby players. Km was going googoo over Viknesh for lending 10 bucks.he got up the bus and km was like dare herself to board the bus.Amanda and her did it.and the guys were like 'boys only'.Imaging bording a bus full of RUGBY players is a dream.Km didn;t gave up though.She went to the front and ask mr ho if she could follow.hilarious.wonder y they dun allow us watch any rugby match.

For my 2.4 i got *surprise**surprise* 2 pts.Now there REALLY goes my 6 yrs.

2moro yipee is a half day.O..i forget i am not part of the contigent thingy.got kicked out not attending trainings.