It's been soooooooooooo long since i last updated. U r now looking at the brand new me. I hav vowed not to be sad. dissapointed. furious over a guy. I realised i have my frenz. For example there was once i was soo moody den during geo i sat wif Km. n it was fucking fun. She was telling me abt de world stupidest criminals n i had a blast laughing.Of coz seeto interrupted n scolded. N i was happy for the rest of the day. Im starting to go for my cca. It's fun, i guess. Ordering the kids ard. i decided not to drop my subject. If the rest of my frenz can do it , im doing it all the way. Im going to study fucking hard for my O to get a beter future so i can ENJOY shopping sprees for the rest of my life. DO u ppl ever wonder why most songs are abt being in luv or being hurt cause of luv. I came up a possibility. Luv is the only thing in the world tat everyone takes interest in no matter how hurt they are bcos of it.It is something tat give different effects to diff pple. N i agree on the song tat' nothing hurts like luv' by daniel beddingfield. Haiz for those being hurt, the pain will go away but the scar will remain.But look at a positive side, u gain knowledge when u got hurt rite? N those who r confused abt luv, confession is the answer. For those now in luv, good luck for u. My brother's fren died yesterday.He's on the front page in the malay paper. Let's do a one minute silence for him. ok. He's juz 21. Haiz.Really pitied the family. I guess some things are much more worst than the problems we faced.. This is a reminder for all. If u hav tat thing deep in ur heart tat u want to tell someone, tell it before it's too late coz u'll never knoe wen u nid to go.

Gawd all this teachers telling us abt Os like we dun knoe how impt it is .--" Aniway. I had been studying. For the couples of days on the first week of january. But after tat i was too lazy to bother .Maybe next week, i'll start fresh by doing my hw here at home instead of at sch. Eh nxt week is last week of january. Tat was fast. yeassh. So anyway. Im cured. i think. i dunno. maybe. I haven been out since 1 jan. So sunday's trip will be my second outing for this year. ...........................................................................................................................................................Hah my life is a mess. i did absolute nothing educational or social for the pass 3 weeks. WHo am i to kid. im NOT cure. All i do is go home.On my radio or cds.Listen to it for hours. And sleep. Im definately not cured.

Im crushed. For now. Rejected someone i liked . Dun ask me why.i got no answer to tat question. After living for 15 yrs, i still dunno who i m. Wat i want wat i need and wat i desire. I still dun knoe wat is right to do or wat is not. i dunno where to go to or what im goin to become. i dunno who i liked and who i love. Wat i feel n wat's my mood. Wat's iimpt or was will nv be impt. To go left or to go right. I dun even trust myself to begin with. Set couple of rules for myself yesterday. Never expect and there wont be dissapointment and dun assume anything or anyone. Talked to mr lim yesterday.Discuss with him the possibility of me dropping some subjects. Maybe i will.Not that i can handle the subjects anyway. S aw Cruel Intentions on starmovie. Fucking great movie but didnt managed to watch the ending. Anyone who watched it, please tell me wat happened in the end. How was school? Hmm.. horrible. Had to do another freaking projects wif the same people who i simply hate. They never do anything to me. It's juz the face. Call me shallow.

New yr todae.Haha i dun feel any different.wAT's the big deal anyway!? So anyway i would like to do a thankful list for stuffs tat help me go thru this yr

` The maker of nutella.without u i would end up in the mental hospital

`The maker of Want Want. U help me fulfill my desire

` My ex tuiton teacher who changed my life when i was in pri 4. you make me a smarter person.Eventhough i dissapoint by ending up goin to this school, i might end up goin to worst school without ur help.Thanks soo much

` liana and khai for giving me bear2.Without him i might die of boredom

` the inventor of handphone. THanks for making this wonderful device.Eventhough i always arrived meetings late but without my hp i would be even later.And u help me get closer to some guys but sometimes u are a curse but let put tat aside

` My parents..for giving me my radio and other technology to kill my boredom and of coz givin birth to me and taking care of me for 15 yrs

` My computer. most of the time i spent cursing u but i hav to admit u help me get some work loads done and all those music i download and the wonderful ppl i met

` My blankie for keeping me warm when im cold and protecting me from the evil of the world

` fidah and shaf and taqiah . fOr still keeping close even when we are always apart

` My md player. THANKS for helping time pass by when i take any public transport.and blocking my mum's nagging

` My wonderful calender with all those codes.Motivate me to move further.ok tat wasnt true but it sounded good.

` my frenz for making school less sucky

` Fidah again for being there when i need u

` fadhirul and aishah for entertain me on the phone for very long hours

` Chun seng and viknesh and khay mar(sumtimes) for helping me to keep up in class

` Khay mar for making class interesting.Most of the time we ended up by u and the chong argueing abt u talking too much.ya interesting

`khai. For sticking up wif me.ya sumtimes i can be a bitch to hang ard wif so ya THANKS.

` amanda . i dun noe wat to thank for but thanks for being my friend. hope things doesnt change btw us

` shazwan. thanks la. for helping me to invent plans to not go for np and my studys and smsing me stupid stuffs



Ya thank you.. ** (= **